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" a virgin will conceive a son and he shall be name EMMANUEL .. " The prophecy of ISAiAH

YESS YESS YALL !! Christmas is almost here.  Just 5 more days `til Christmas Day.  YAY !! Ok thats enough. Well , this will be long. You dont have to read on if you dont want to. haha. I know how you guys hate reading long ass blogs , especiallty my blogs. They can get really really L0NG ! haha. SO WARNiNG TO THE READiNG-IMPARED !! STOP N0W & leave this xanga before reading ON ! L0NG BL0G !!!

Anyways , as the New Year is creeping towards us, this is a great time to change and have some resolutions that will be fullfilled in that NEW YEAR. I aint changing ME !! No way ! I just want to do thing a little better. 2005 for me is the time for FiNDiNG MYSELF WITHiN. Finding that inner soul thats tucked away somewhere. This is the time to find those TRUE FRIENDS that will stick with you for life ! This is the time to get rid of ALL THOSE PEOPLE THAT ARE KEEPING YOU FROM YOUR DREAMS. AND , Its MY TiME to show people who I REALLY AM ! Physically , Mentally & Talently . This is my TIME to show all my true talents. G00D LUCK TO ME !

Ok , now i wanna put up my NEW YEARS RESOLUTi0NS ! =]
     -- HAVE A FULL ON GOOD YEAR !!
     -- Get FAT & Then excersise it off !
     -- Be More Responsible IN EVERYTHiNG !
     -- Be A Better Older Sister & Lil Sister =]
     -- Not Be Afraid To SHOW OFF MY SKiLLS !! hehe
     -- STAY 0UT 0F DRAMA !!! [ impossible but i'll try ]
 
                                                  ----- SHOUT OUTS -----

[ These shout outs will only be for Destynie , Josh & Felicia for now ]

TO MY W0NDERFUL Seestar , Destynie !
This will be MY LAST SHOUT OUT for the YEAR , `til the NEXT TiME I WRITE YOU A SHOUT OUT [ which will be on IN JUNE ] Ok anyways, How long have i known you for ? 7 months ? Well, it feels l ike I've known you FOREVER !! Wow, 7 months can really give you a big impact on your life. Well , i know i've said this IN ALL THE SHOUT OUTS , but i just wanna recap, `cos alot has happened from the last time i gave you one. First & Foremost, YOUR LiKE AN ANGEL SENT FROM ABOVE yet A DEMON SENT FROM BEL0W !! muahaha ! ; ] Gosh , you made me work HARD from these 7 months !! Jheez , put up with HELLA OF YOUR SHiT !! HAHA ! Well , YOU ROCK MY SOCKS & MY WORLD & MY UNiVERSE !! Without you , i'd be nothing. You're one of my motivations in life. Just havin` your presence surround me really puts me to work. I tell myself , WORK HARDER , DAMNiT !! haha !! You're one of the things I LiVE FOR ! Anyways , whatever happens to me IN THE NEAR-FUTURE , always know that im there for you. MENTALLY & SPiRiTUALLY k ? i'll be watchin` OVER YA !! =]. [ knock on wood ] Even though I am still living & i aint there , remember , FAMiLY LiVES WiTHiN YOU , IN YOUR HEART !! You just have to believe & we'll ALWAYS BE THERE !! hmm , what else ? Okay , you really need to LIKE QUiT ON GUYS FOR A WHiLE !! haha . Except for ARDEN. David , hmm , lemme think ? Ierno. Just dont do the things YOUR MOM FOUND IN YOUR AGENDA [ tsk tsk ] I'd lie for you Sis , but hopefully that will be the LAST TiME I will lie for you ! haha ! See , I LIED !!! waaa !! GUiLT GUiLT !! Anyways , more stuff , more stuff !! Wow , another year is coming up !! Now , ME & YOU can start a fresh NEW YEAR . FORGET ABOUT ALL THE STUPiD THINGS ME & YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH !! Ok last thing , THANKS FOR PUTTiN` UP WITH EVERYTHING I D0 !! Even though your younger than me , YOU tend to act OLDER THAN YOUR AGE ! ha ! But stay your lil BABYSELF K !? I L0VE YOU THIS MANY [ .. ] HAAA !! Just messin` . I L0VE YOU !!!!!!! AL0T ! to the point where i cant count no more ! haha !! NiMR0D & KANSAS F0REVER !!! =] P.S. We'll have a show soon [ THE KANSAS & NiMR0D SH0W ! ]

To MY GANGSTA , HIP HOP L0ViN BEST FRiEND & BROTHER , JOSH !
Well Well Well , what to say about your ass . YOUR COOL . okay , im done. HAHA !! Just playin` . Gosh , Im goin` through a blank phase right now . Lemme think . Okay . G0SH !! YOUR JUST WOW !!! Cant explain YOU ! Your FUNNY , COOL TO BE AROUND WITH . ALL THAT SHIT MAN !! HAHA ! Miss HOURGLASS ? Chyeah right ! I CANT BELIEVE YOU JUST SAID THAT TO ME ! WHY ARE YOU CHECKiN` ME OUT !!?? IM YOUR SISTER DAMNiT !! L0LS !! jp jp !! But yeah . Just wanted to like say , THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEiN` THERE FOR ME . Literally . Bein` there for me as in like helpin` me with stuff & literally being RIGHT NEXT TO ME . HAHA !! YOUR MY BODYGUARD !! Cos this soon-to-be celebrity needs security . HAHA ! Well anyways , this dude is like my sidekick . sorta . He agrees with me alot . Well , most of the time . wait , does he agree with me at all ? I forget . haha ! Well , just wanted to say LOVE YA L0TS !! sorry if this is all i sayd , its all i can think of . HAHA !!

To MY PARTNER iN SiNGiNG ATEH , Felicia !
Me & You will be in a group i bet ! My Kuya Tony can hook us up in gigs ! [ Im serious ] He'll be our manager !!! L0LS !! Anyways , G0SH !!!! Without you with me in math class , i'll never get through it !! haha !! ok to be serious , WITHOUT YOU I AM SERiOUSLY NOTHING !!! Thanks for always being there for me . Through the bad & good times. We've both experienced similar problems . So its cool to have someone feel the same things, ya know ? But know that i will always be there for you , physically , mentally & spiritually. Ok , I've known you since this summer & its like wow , i got to know more about you & i think thats really cool . [ hopefully you know stuff about me ] haha ! Well , thanks for always CARiNG about me. You really know how to be an ATEH !!! YOUR MY INSPiRATiON & HER0 !!! YOUR THE BESTEST ATEH A GiRL CAN EVER ASK FOR !! [ gosh i wonder how many times i've said this ? ] Anyways , Your so cool to hang out with. You make everything fun. Days at school & your not there isnt the same. Its so boring . Its because of your laughter we have fun too. L0LS !!! Thats what i like about you . YOU LAUGH AT ANYTHiNG !! YOU WEIRDO !! l0ls !!! Like FRiDAY when you werent there , we all just sat at a different hangout & did stupid shit ! Hmm , what else ? Hmm , what else ? Oh , if i werent here & something happened to me , know that YOU'RE A STR0NG LAYDEE !!! You dont need me !! You can go through life with your braveness & happy self. Also , youve got Josh & Destynie . So yeah . WELL , I L0VE YA ATEH !!!!!!

Ok this is to all three of you . I know i sayd it to Destynie & Felicia , but i just wanted to say it again . Its important ! HAHA ! [ Hmm , this is TO EVERYONE OF MY FRiENDS !! ]

Ok , know that I L0VE ALL YOU GUYS !!!! You guys make me who I AM ! Thats what i love about life . HANGiN` WITH MY FRIENDS !! Seeing your happy faces every single day , makes me happy. But Like , if ANYTHiNG EVER HAPPENS TO ME [ knock on wood ] , know that i will ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU !! I dont care if im dead . Imma find a way to be with you guys . Thats how important you guys are too me . But anyways , If i left this world early , know that you guys are STRONG , INTELLiGENT PEOPLE & you can go through life without me . I just want you guys to live one happy life . With me here or not . But know , Im always going to be here for you , in your hearts . Like i sayd to Destynie [ FAMiLY ALWAYS LiVES WiTHiN YOU , IN YOUR HEARTS ] So yeah . LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS !!!!!!

Oh , Just take a look at these lyrics from INDiA.ARiE -- GOOD MAN

if the sun comes up
and I'm not home
be strong
If I'm not beside you
Do your best to
carry on

Well , Im out . Imma write another blog about FRiDAY , SATURDAY , SUNDAY , TUESDAY ! So yeah .

WHY SH0ULD i TRUST YOU ? Can any of you answer that ??  Right now , im beginnin` to not trust , each and everyone of you . The only person .. wait people ! i can trust right now are .. My [ Imediate ] Family , Kuya Rob & G0D !! Thats all .. Life for me , is like at the edge of the cliff right now . Ierno whats causin` all of this , but its on the brink of extinction ! I just wanna runaway & never ever COME BACK !! Theres really no one i can turn to .. [ Sorry Josh , Felicia & Destynie & the whole crew , my trust is like .. gone .. ( for now ) ] Lately Ive been feelin` left out .. With friends & now cousins . Today , at the catillion .. i felt left out . G0SH !! why cant i just die now !? I have pills & knives .. and i aint afraid to use them !!!!!!! I dont know what to do anymore .. hmm , after basketball .. what am i gonna do now ?? ...

EDiTED

Aye peoples . im over this . I was just in a little phase [ that whole left out thing ] So yeah . THANKS ANH , DOROTHY & CHL0E for cheerin` me up and givin` me the advice . [ Well Anh didnt really , but whatever ! ] Also , THANKS TO MY LiL SiS for givin` me advice and makin` me feel like im not left out . =) love ya lots !!!

Yo ma`fuckas !!! Bored & Lazy . If you guys wanna see my blog I wrote earlier , Then go to my Seestaars Xanga .

http://www.xanga.com/lilxkutexaznxgurl

peace-easy !! late !!

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Hey Peoples . Hmm , today is THANKSGiViNG DAY !!! YAYURRS !! l0ls . Well , just chillin` at home with the Family && havin` a lil party & dinner . Sounds fun , eh ? Just thinkin` about thanksgiving here is makin` me think about the upcoming things , CHRiSTMAS && NEW YEARS !!! Having to buy presents for peoples && making New Years Resolutions . Wow , i cant Believe 2005 is almost here . It feels like 2004 just got here & now its leavin` . Mos Def , im goin` to make AL0T 0F NEW YEARS RESOLUTi0NS !!! L0LS !! Anyways , back to Thanksgiving . Everyone is putting up stuff for what they're thankful for right now .. so imma do that too ..

First & foremost , i wanna thank G0D for everything he has given me in life . Without him , nothing is possible . I thank him for giving me MY FAMiLY , THE BiG FAMiLiA CREW && THE BL00D RELATED CREW in my life . Going through life without these kidds is like goin` through HELL . I thank G0D for giving me the GREATEST PARENTS iN THE W0RLD && THE GREATEST SiSTER A GiRL CAN EVER ASK FOR !!! I thank G0D for giving me my wonderful talents so i can share it to the world !!! I thank G0D for always giving me another day of breathing , experience & life !! THANKS S0 MUCH L0RD !!! AMEN !!!
                           -- PSALM 136:1 " Give thanks to the LORD , for he is good " --

I'm Thankful for MY WH0LE FAMiLY _ They've put up with everything I've done . Bad & Good . They've been always been there for me EVER SiNCE . Whatever choices I make , they accept . [ It has to be a good choice , or they wont agree :] Theyve givin` me the clothes on my body , the shoes on my feet , the food on the table & i thank them for doing that . I L0VE Y0U GUYS !!!

I'm Thankful for MY KUYA T0NY _ HE iS THE B0MB !!! THE BESTEST C0USiN A GiRL CAN HAVE !! He's like my older brother . i can tell him anything & everything . This cat is D0PE !! He's my HIP HOP , MUSIC L0ViN` , BREAKiN` , SCRATCHiN` , BEATBOXiN` BUDDHIEE !! He's been a great role model to me . When i was little , i know i took Kuya Tony for granted . Didnt think that he was that type of cousin to like chill with you know , But now that i have gotten older , i got to realize how cool & down to earth he is .Thanks for taking me to places , that ARENT B0RING !! Thanks for always giving me advice . Thanks FOR EVERYTHING . L0VE Y0U KUYA T !!!

The following THREE PEOPLE have been the GREATEST EVER !! They're motives in life , they are the reason why i STAND HERE & LiVE to this day .....

I'm Thankful For MY ATEH FELiCiA " J0Y " ANDAYA _ My Sister from Another Mother . She's the bestest ATEH a girl can ever ask for . She put up with ALL the BULLSHiT i had , but always tends to help me with my problems . She's always there to lend a helping hand , a shoulder to cry on & ears to hear all the things you have to say . She CARES CARES CARES so much about other people , more than she cares about herself . When someones hurt , she'll be there to see if your okay . If your sick , she'll be there , knockin` at your door . She's like a M0M !! If your sick , OMG !! She's like WHOA !! " DRiNK AL0T 0F LiQUiDS " , "TAKE YOUR MEDiCiNE " , " LAY D0WN & REST !!! " L0LS !!! I L0VE Y0U ATEH !!!! Without you , IM N0THING !!!!

I'm Thankful for MY LiL BR0 , J0SHUA " OBBiE " MANANSALA _ My Brother from Another Mother !! My Gangsta LiL BR0 !! This dude is HIL-AR-I-OUS !! FUNNY T0 THE B0NE !! He can make anyone LAUGH !! Especially FELiCiA !! HAHA !! Anyways , Josh has always , ALWAYS been there for me . Most of the time , He's by my side . Everywhere we go , He's right next to me . Josh is like My Guy Best Friend . I can tell me absolutely ANYTHiNG & he wont tell anyone . I L0VE Y0U J0SH !!!!!

I'm Thankful For MY LiL SiS , DESTYNiE " NiMR0D " TRAN _ My Other Sister From Another Mother . SHE'S THE BESTEST LIL SIS ANY0NE CAN HAVE !!!!!!!!!! G0SH , I L0VE THiS GiRL T0 DEATH !!!! Me & Her have gone through so much TENSiON !! But i think us fighting gets us even closer . L0LS !! I wanna THANK HER THE MOST `cos she's always I MEAN ALWAYS ALWAYS HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME !! No matter what & i never really gave her ENOUGH credit & never really acknowledge how much time she has wasted just to put up with my ass . [ Ahh , now i feel like a bad sister :[ I can never live a DAY without her !!! I can connect with her & without her connection , then i wont be able to express things to people & have them understand , ya know ? Like i sayd so many times , It was like i was born to meet her , LONG LOST SiSTER !! [ I thank G0D A WH0LE BUNCH !!! ] Anyways , I L0VE L0VE L0VE YA L0TS SiS !!!!!!!

I'm Thankful For THE WH0LE CREW _ This is to all yalls [ Ronna , Danielle , Allen , Daniel , Stephanie , Loveleen , Kelly , John , Paul , Hannah , Dorothy , Chloe , Tiffany , etc. ] You guys are the coolest !!! You've always been there for me & i wanna thank yall !! Even though some of us dont really talk to eachother as much as others , doesnt mean i dont LOVE YA !! I L0VE ALL YOU GUYS SO MUCH !!! All the things Ive done , you guys encourage me to always do my best . HAHA !!! Thanks you guys for comin` to ONE bball game . [ Hopefully you guys are comin` to the next one !! ] I need all you guys to be there to root me on . I NEED MY LiL CHEER SECTiON !! Well anyways , L0VE YOU GUYS !!!!!!

Well , thats about it . So I'm out . Late . Peace !

 Mary Ann

Yo peoples !! Whats snappin` !!?? Well right now , im at Destynies house . Just sittin` here , waitin` for her to get ready . Shes sleepin` over `cos tommorrow were headin` to SF to see the HIP HOP DANCE FEST !! YUPP YUPP !! So big stuff tommorrow . Man , i wanna get SOULS OF MISCHIEF " 93 to INFINITE " Album . So imma ask my mom for extra money && then imma ask Kuya Tony to bring me to AMOEBA so i can get that Album or i might get something thats NEO SOUL or SOUL stuff . So yeah . Hmmm , things have like been WOW over these past days . Its been kinda awkward & jhus plain weird ! Goin` through CHANGE is like wow !! It can really change you , as a person & how you treat people . Well , i'll talk more about it when i get home ..

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